Thursday, November 12, 2009 @ 4:10 AM
i just wanna walk straight and not bother about whatis going on around me .
i can't seem to talk sense right now . so many things are bothering my mind . if you think i'm at fault then i won't argue . i only care for you as a friend . if you're having problems , why don't you share it with me ? i thot we're like sisters to each other . i may nort know what you're going through right now but does it mean that you can change ? does changing even make your problems lighten a little ? neh , i don't think so . when i closed my eyes , the past memories makes me cry . did i accidentally went wrong somewhere ? i really don't know . now , my heart is sinking deeply . i really don't know what to do . i feel like going far far away where i get some peace . seriously , i'm kinda fucked up . my body is feeling so weak . i just wish i could make things better . well , maybe i ain't a good friend after all . if i've hurt you then i'm sorry . yeah , i shouldn't have said a thing about the way you dress or whatsoever because it's your life . you live it , nort me . i guess i can't say anything much because we don't get along anymore . maybe it's my fault . maybe i did something wrong without noticing it . but honestly , i miss the old you . those laughter and joy that we shared , i kinda miss those moments . i wasn't trying to control you at all . if you think i am then i'm really sorry .
lily , i don't know what's wrong with you these few days . your actions makes me feel kinda guilty . i know you hate him but is it wrong for me to be friends with him ? i don't understand , i simply don't . why look at him just by his appearance ? i'm nort siding him but it's the fact . try putting yourself in his shoes , what would you feel if someone says that he/she doesn't see a good person in you ? you don't even know him . you just judge him by his looks . it's nort fair for him , nort at all . you can't even explain why you hate him . what is that suppose to mean anyway ? seriously , it's making my head spinning round and round . i don't know what to do . i can't please everyone . well , if i did something wrong , i'm sorry .
i hate it , i simply do . the past keeps on haunting me . i'm trying hard to move on but it's just too hard . i'm hurting myself , i know that but what can i possibly do ? you're already 3 months with her but me , i'm still stucked at the same spot . you tell me you still love me but at the same time , you also love her . how is it possible ? maybe it is possible but it wouldn't be equal . whenever i look at you , i'll remember the past . the past that makes me feel like everything is so perfect . for a moment , it made me go on a little journey . now , i'm trying to heal my broken heart . taping it with anything i could . but it doesn't seem to help . i'm just clueless .
waiting for pay , going to buy new handphone :D
and next month , i'll be buying a skateboard :)
lily , i don't know what's wrong with you these few days . your actions makes me feel kinda guilty . i know you hate him but is it wrong for me to be friends with him ? i don't understand , i simply don't . why look at him just by his appearance ? i'm nort siding him but it's the fact . try putting yourself in his shoes , what would you feel if someone says that he/she doesn't see a good person in you ? you don't even know him . you just judge him by his looks . it's nort fair for him , nort at all . you can't even explain why you hate him . what is that suppose to mean anyway ? seriously , it's making my head spinning round and round . i don't know what to do . i can't please everyone . well , if i did something wrong , i'm sorry .
i hate it , i simply do . the past keeps on haunting me . i'm trying hard to move on but it's just too hard . i'm hurting myself , i know that but what can i possibly do ? you're already 3 months with her but me , i'm still stucked at the same spot . you tell me you still love me but at the same time , you also love her . how is it possible ? maybe it is possible but it wouldn't be equal . whenever i look at you , i'll remember the past . the past that makes me feel like everything is so perfect . for a moment , it made me go on a little journey . now , i'm trying to heal my broken heart . taping it with anything i could . but it doesn't seem to help . i'm just clueless .
waiting for pay , going to buy new handphone :D
and next month , i'll be buying a skateboard :)
