Wednesday, June 24, 2009 @ 3:37 PM
NEW CHAPTERS , OLD MEMORIES .
it's been a long time since i update .
i'm lazy to even switch on the laptop .
but since i've nothing to do right now , might as well i update .
well , i've been missing these people lately ; Dinah , Sasha , Syikin , Afiq , Akmal .
i can't seem to contact dinah .
she's nort replying my msgs ; prepaid low kot .
hmmph , it's been awhile since i last met her .
is she still the same old dinah or has she changed ?
she asked me to teach her cause she needs to catch up with her studies .
as usual , she missed the lessons during the first two weeks of the holidays .
but when i text her , she doesn't seem to reply .
i'm trying to help her but she's nort making an effort .
she's busy with her dance prac & wht am i to do ?
if she really wants to study , she'll come find for me & nort i find for her .
if i say that she's changed , will she be able to accept it ?
she's no longer the dinah that i knew the last time .
she's so much into dance than studies .
i barely see her outside , only in school .
i really miss the old dinah .
memories of the past kept playing in my mind .
nort just relationships but friendships as well .
i know i can't turn back the time .
what's done cannot be undone .
it's too late now .
all i can do is learn from past mistakes & move on .
i'm glad those fights have ended .
i did lose a frend but i hope she will realise her mistakes .
eventhough abdul already realised his mistakes , i can see his changes .
he no longer treats me the same way as he treated me the last time .
things changes & people changes too .
as for akmal , he's now my bestie once again .
i'm happy for him , i really am .
well , he's found someone now .
i can tell that he loves her very much .
i hope he'll last long with her .
i'm glad that i'm over him .
eventhough we're bestfrends now , i know that things won't be the same again .
he's changed ; betta or nort , i'm nort shure .
but still , i'm happy that he's my bestie .
new chapters has indeed open in my life .
i love my bby very very much .
eventhough we may quarrel at times , i know that things are going to be alright .
he understands me & i really appreciate that .
all i want is to see him happy every minute .
i know that i'm nort able to be there for him 24 hrs a day but by msging him , that's how i show that i care .
he may nort know it but deep inside my heart , i don't ever want to let him go .
when he stepped into my life , i feel what happiness is .
& i don't want it to end here .
if only i can open my mouth to say that i love him , wouldn't that be wonderful .
but i just don't dare eventhough he's my boyfiee .
i need time , i guess .
but these few days , something is just nort right .
maybe it's just a feeling , i don't know .
but it's been nearly a week since i last get to sleep well .
i've been tossing & turning in bed .
something is running through my mind but i can't figure out what is it .
i hope things will turn out alright .
labels : i miss bby .
