Thursday, May 14, 2009 @ 2:41 AM
FIGHTS & ARGUMENTS .
let's make it clear here .
who are you to judge me & my frends ?
go on , blog bout me all you want .
i don't forking care .
come on laa , i can't accept the fact or is it you who can't accept the fact ?
face it , it's reality laa girl .
fyi , i'm nort the type of person who speaks without evidence .
you're the one who doesn't know anything so don't tell me to shut up my mouth .
i'm nort like you , i gort sources .
you've changed ? LOL !
you changed only for awhile & then you became your oldself once again .
people don't want to give you a second chance of changing ?
it's a pity isn't it ?
bile si abdul tuh suke pt kaw , kaw skit pon tak pandang die .
abeyh bile die ngan lily , kaw aleh-aleh suke die .
eh ! pleasee laa eyh . tak mau bbl mepek .
& kaw nak ckp aku pompan tak laku ? LOL !
klao tak tahu pape , tak mau nak ckp .
tak mau confident sgt uh girl .
& so what klao die tknk aku alek ?
does it mean that aku nie pompan murah ?
you seriously gort to be kidding me .
aku tak cukop kaseh sayang & perangai mcm bdk-bdk kecik ?
eh ! come on laa . at least aku nie jauh lebih baik dari kaw .
agknye kaw terlalu byk kaseh sayang sampai kaw jadi rosak .
i'm a good girl ? well , yes i am .
but it's a sad thing that you & abdul don't know the real me .
i can't be nice to you if you're nice to me .
but i won't hesitate to confront you if you treat me like i'm a piece of a shit .
just cause i'm small , you think i don't dare to slap you ?
well , bring it on girl .
we'll see who's scared of who .
you think you're so pretty that's why my brother was attracted to you .
OMG ! you're so the perasaan .
go look in the mirror & see who you are first .
tak mau nak bbl step mane punye faham je .
go on , go with that abdul .
nobody is going to be jealous of you anyway .
you're nort any popular girl or whatsoever .
even your own classmate doesn't want to entertain you .
who would want to entertain your behaviour anyway ?
seriously , i really pity you laa girl .
Sunday, May 10, 2009 @ 4:58 AM
IT'S OVER .
YANEEY :
i lied to you about my feelings ?
i didn't .
& even if i did , why should you be hurt .
i should be the one who's hurt .
hurt by all your words .
i know that you & farahin don't like him .
but so what ?
is it wrong for me to be in love with him ?
he has his reasons for hurting me .
if you guys don't know anything , just shut your mouth up .
& don't try to tell me what i should do & whether he's the right one for me or nort .
no matter how much he hurt me , i'm still happy .
so what's the problem with you guys ?
& yah , its true that i did like someone else .
fyi , i like that someone nort as a rebound guy .
but its for real .
i kept the feeling for akmal cause of you guys .
i'm hurt by all of you guys' words .
do you guys even care about my feelings ?
go on , you guys can hate him all you want .
no matter what , i'll stand up for him .
mark my words .
enough is enough .
for how long will i be hurt ?
for how long will i think of other people's happiness instead of mine ?
i also want to be happy .
i also want to live my life like others .
for goodness' sake , just leave me alone .
labels : unexpected outcome & it's over .
Tuesday, May 5, 2009 @ 6:04 AM
HURTFUL .
why is all this happening to me ?
why is it me who gets all the blame ?
what's my fault anw ?
heard of the word friends ?
i bet it should be wonderful to have friends , right ?
having friends is wonderful but trying to find true friends ain't that easy .
if i regard them as a sister , what do they regard me as ?
i've changed alot ; maybe .
what if i say this is who i really am ?
will they be able to accept me for who i am ?
i've been pretending to be happy cause i don't want them to worry bout me .
maybe they don't see the inner side of me .
i guess they don't understand me after all .
i started it all ? hell yeah .
i guess i did .
but then it didn't fight with them .
i just didn't feel like talking to me .
whenever i tried to , it's like my heart is stopping me from doing so .
i make faces at her ?
if they didn't make faces at me , i wouldn't have make faces at them .
go on , put the blame on me all you guys want .
it's nort going to affect me .
my bestie ; akmal .
i know that things ain't right .
somehow , i feel like you're going to avoid & ignore me .
things have been nice & wonderful with you around .
i don't know why but this time , my heart isn't giving me the confidence .
i know i've hurt you in the past but we can start anew , can't we ?
i admit that i still have feelings for me .
okay , it's love .
i still love you but i can't force you to love me if you don't .
all those captured moments , it kept playing in my mind .
every night , i cry for you .
i don't want you to suffer .
i don't want you to feel hurt .
i won't let you go through any pain .
if you have to , i'll be with you through it all .
i don't know if i'll get another chance to be with you .
but if i do ,
i promise to treat you betta .
i promise to make you happy always .
i promise nort to make you shed any tears .
i promise to be there for you .
i promise to stand up for you .
& lastly , i promise to love you sincerely .
will 11 may be a day that i get my happiness back ?
i wish so .
i know i can't be a perfect gf for him .
nobody is perfect .
but i wish to be the best for him .
forgive me for the mistakes that i've done .
labels : waiting for a miracle to happen & i love him .
